Overwhelmed by positive comments

Yesterday I changed my profile picture on face book to the picture I had posted on here where the caption states “I feel so fat in this picture but at least my make-up looks nice.”

 

When I went to bed last night I was scrolling on my Facebook and noticed I got 24 “likes” and 10 comments of people telling me how amazing I look. I was absolutely blown away. I have no other words but overwhelmed and blown away by the positive feedback.

So this morning when my alarm went off at 6:30 so I could wake up and exercise I started to talk myself out of it. (I have a rule where if I am trying to talk myself out of exercising in the morning for more than ten minutes then I have to get up and exercise, if I have been up for ten minutes then it is time to get up and do work.) As I am talking myself out of it this morning I was reminded of my Facebook picture and all the positive comments. I was also reminded of my Thanksgiving goal to have my family give me some positive feedback, and that Thanksgiving in only days away. Needless to say I have been up since 6:30 I got in a great work out with Jillian Michaels Shed and Shred and I feel great!

I peeked at the scale this morning and I am only one pound heavier then I was before vacation. My body is extremely happy with me this week for being back on track. I even made it to the gym last night after work.  Just as I thought I am also feeling the need to post more blogs since I am doing well. When I eat right and exercise it gives me things to write about.

I plan on hitting the gym after work tomorrow and possibly a Sunday morning walk (I loved doing those and have not done one in a long time.) My house also needs some extreme cleaning due to the fact I just got back from vacation and we have everyone coming to my house for Thanksgiving.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Post Vacation

Back from vacation. Man does it suck to come back to reality. Our hotel was beautiful, right on the ocean with free breakfast and free drinks from 5:30pm – 7:30pm EVERY night. We visited the boy’s family friends, we went to a beautiful country themed wedding, we spent one day on the beach and one day by the hotel pool. It was great.

I ate like shit the entire time, although the first night I was in Florida we were at a sports bar for dinner. I had my meal all ready to order for when the waitress came.  (I was drunk and craving a burger and wings and was going to order a cheese burger slider French fries and chicken wings.) Minutes before the waitress came a very heavy man came into the bar and I took it as a sign. I immediately changed my order to wings and a garden salad. I also did not have any dessert during vacation except for a sliver of cake at the wedding. My biggest down fall was alcohol. FREE DRINKS I said, how could I resist!?

I weighed in when I got home and I was up 8lbs. I worked out this morning and drank tons of water yesterday and I weighed in this morning and was down 2lbs.

Realizing Thanksgiving is a week away has slapped me into gear. I really want to have someone in my family notice I have lost weight and make a comment letting me know they notice. I have also recently found out I am going to be in my friend’s wedding in October 2013. I have never been in a wedding before and I will be f****** dammed if I am still uncomfortable with my weight at a wedding. I also cannot forget the ultimate goal of being 200lbs for my other friend’s wedding in July of 2013.

So there are multiple motivational factors fueling me right now. My food today is back to what I normally have and my schedule the next two weeks allows me work out time, so I have no excuses!

 

Below are a few pix of my vacation. I did not get to upload all of them yet my computer was being dumb last night, but you get the idea.

I think I look so fat here but at least my make up is nice lol.

Amazing ocean.

This is the view from my balcony, Are you kidding me!? LoL

 

Okay one more post before the weekend...

Tomorrow is the day I leave for Florida! I am so excited ESPECIALLY because we are expected to get snow this afternoon and into the night here in New England. It does not look like enough to effect my flight, but it will be enough to annoy me on the drive to Boston.

The weather in Florida is going to be in the 70’s and the temp here is in the 30’s so I am pumped to get outta here for the weekend!

I have been able to stay on track this whole week with food and I was able to squeeze in a work out video yesterday morning. I really do like exercising before work, I feel like it is a great way to start off the day. Getting out of my electric blanket an hour earlier than normal on the other hand is not so nice. BUT you gotta go the extra mile for the results right?! Right.

I have ultimately decided not to exercise while on vacation. Not only do I not have the room in my suit case for extra cloths and shoes, I also realized I will not have access to laundry nor do I want to have to worry about doing laundry. When I work out I like to work out hard. I like to sweat to the point where I deserve a shower and I do not want those sweaty cloths just hanging out with me until I come home Monday night. This paragraph can be interpreted as excuses and if I truly was committed to exercising on vacation I would deal, but I am not committed to it and I am not going to worry about it.

I normally only take one week vacation in July, so this trip is an extra bonus and I am going to enjoy it.  

Well I suppose that is all for today. I will post again after my vacation. Have a nice weekend everyone!

Back on the wagon.....for now.

Saturday I was able to stay on track with my food and I did two work out videos burning 347 calories. I was so sore all day Sunday but it was the soreness I love. I have missed it oh so much. My abs, my quads, my upper arms, everywhere was so sore but I love it.

Yesterday was Sunday so we had friends over to watch football like usual, and like usual there was mass amounts of unhealthy food. I started the day with an egg white omelet and grapes so I didn’t want to screw it up. I stayed on track all day. I measured out French onion dip with a tablespoon and instead of chips I cut up some cucumbers and peppers. I went to bed with 123 calories left and I feel in control again.

Today my food is healthy and I am feeling great.

Thursday the boy and I are heading down to Florida for a wedding. I am not making any false promises to myself regarding how I plan to eat. I am going to try and make healthier options but we are staying in a hotel so almost all meals will be take out :-/  . We all know, no matter how hard we try, take-out food is never really “good” for you. But I will do my best.

Our hotel does have a gym in it and I would love to work out, but I do not have enough space in my suit case for my sneakers or work out cloths. I suppose I could try to think of some way around this because I really would like to work out at least once while we are there.

Below is a picture of our hotel. I have only been as far as Orlando when it comes to the state of Florida, and the boy’s parents want to make sure I have a time to remember while I am back in his home town, so they booked the best of the best. It will be pricey but hey its vacation, money isn’t an issue on vacation....right?  (It’s when you get back to your “real life” you pay those consequences. LoL.)

 

 

The hotel in Florida Ill be staying at this weekend!

 

So I will probably not post again until after the trip, but I wanted to report that I have been going strong these past few days. I just need to remember how far I have come and remember I know what I need to do to keep moving forward. Only I can make this happen, and if I want it bad enough I will do what I need to do.

Have a great week everyone, I will be sure to post after the trip!

Have you missed me??

If anyone is still out there following me I apologize for my absence, but as we all know life happens. I have started my second job at a mental health center and I have been putting in about 50-60hrs a week between both jobs. I love the new job and I am learning a ton, but free time is scarce these days and I am sorry I have not been keeping up on posts.

Another reason for not posting very often is because there is not too much to report as far as my weight loss. The past few weeks I have only exercised a handful of times. I ended up with another cold one week after my first one.

 I have been making decent choices as far as what I am eating but I most defiantly have not been as on track as I could/should be. Even though my food consumption is not 100% the best it could be, I have still lost a few pounds. As of my last weigh in I am down to 261lbs. Making my total since May 29lbs. Making my total since I moved home from AZ 72lbs.  J

I have not been working on any of the goals from my goals page and my C25K running has been nonexistent. The weather is cold and gloomy here and work out videos have been my go to lately due to lack of time. My gym has gotten some new machines and nice flat screen tv’s though so I am pretty happy about that.

We survived hurricane Sandy last night and my part of New England did not get hit as bad as other places. The wind was scary and I did not like it one bit, but I know it could have been much worse and I am thankful we did not sustain any damages.

Another form of Mother Nature has blown through my life today and I am going to take it easy, but I plan on getting back on track a.s.a.p. If I can get my shit together right now I can still drop a few pounds before thanksgiving. And I am still hoping I have lost enough for my family to notice and let me know they notice that I have lost weight.  

I am not sure if I still have anyone reading my blog but if I do thank you for hanging on. I will try to write more often. If I can get my act together I will have more to write about, which in turn should force me to find more time to write.

Bye bye now.

Update & Flash Back

Update

Although I have not been the worst eater these past few weeks I have not been the best. I also have not exercised in the past 9 days.  Well today I am getting back on track for real. I have been eating mostly the same things I always do but with a few not so great meals here and there.  So this morning after packing my lunch for the day I wrote it all down and added up the weight watchers points, as well as added all the food to MFP app. My gym bag is packed for the first time in two weeks and I plan on hitting up the crazy machine after work today.

I have been training at my new job as well as still working full time at my current job. Waking up at 5:30am and not getting home till 8 or 9 at night is my reasoning for not exercising.  But this upcoming week my schedule is a little less chaotic and I am determined to fit in some morning work outs even if it’s just 3 or 4 a week. Any exercise is better than none!

Flash Back

I was hungry after work the other day and was thinking of something fast and easy for dinner.  For some reason Subway kept coming to my mind but I just can’t bring myself to eat it regularly.  Not that Subway is the worst option by any means, but when I lived in AZ I would get subway at least once a week sometimes twice. I would get a foot long BMT with all the veggies and cheese and avocado. I would also get two bags of chips (one bag for each half of sandwich) and a large soda. I would get home and get my plate and my napkins and find a comfortable spot on the couch. I would be sure to have a good show on T.V. before I began eating and off I would go.  I was so full and stuffed afterwards and not one bit happy.  The thought of my “eating subway ritual” makes me so ashamed and disgusted.  So ashamed and disgusted that I get sick thinking of eating that sandwich.  And I love subway but it just reminds me of how I got to be over 300lbs and I am so scared to go back there.

This mornings weigh in has me at 28lbs lost since May 2012. I know if I put in the hard work like I did all summer I will be able to drop more weight, but this cold weather makes it so dang hard! I was afraid this was going to happen too. With football season and all the fatty cheesy foods that go with that. Then the holidays and all the baked goods and casseroles that go with holidays. The cold weather and getting dark earlier at night. Ughh I am defiantly someone who is better at losing weight in the summer.

But that is too bad. I have a goal of being 200lbs or less by July 2013 and I am going to reach that goal. I am not going to fail. I am going to do the necessary work to blow all my friends and family away. Shit I am going to blow myself away!

 

Today is my first day back in full force and I am not screwing around! Although my insane schedule is not allowing me much blog time I assure you I am still reading all the blogs I follow and all your hard work and progress is motivating me every day. I will be sure to write again soon and thank you all for reading!

Three jobs!?!?

I am just so busy. I have been training for my new job as well as working my normal fulltime job AND interviewing for another job working with the state. On top of all that I have contracted a cold that is in full force today. Luckily my schedule today and tomorrow is simple, Friday on the other hand the madness continues.

I was able to wake up early Monday and get a work out in before work. Yesterday I had my gym bag to go workout after my full day of training but by the time my day ended my throat was on fire. This morning and tomorrow morning I was supposed to hit the gym before work but this cold is getting in the way for sure.

I am going to allow myself to relax with this cold and be sure to stay on track with my eating since I cannot work out. I weighed myself this morning and I am still at the same weight I have been for weeks now, but at least it is not going up. I would love to see the scale go down but I feel good and I am not gaining so that is important. I am also not working hard enough to make the scale go down so I cant be disappointed.

Sunday I am finally supposed to go on that hike I have been talking about since July? But now it looks like Sunday might rain. Ugh so annoying!

Anyway that is my short update. I am still able to keep up reading all the blogs I follow but when it comes to writing I do not have much to report.

Sorry for being so boring! Thanks for reading.  

My work space today.