Update
Although I
have not been the worst eater these past few weeks I have not been the best. I
also have not exercised in the past 9 days.
Well today I am getting back on track for real. I have been eating mostly
the same things I always do but with a few not so great meals here and
there. So this morning after packing my
lunch for the day I wrote it all down and added up the weight watchers points,
as well as added all the food to MFP app. My gym bag is packed for the first
time in two weeks and I plan on hitting up the crazy machine after work today.
I have been
training at my new job as well as still working full time at my current job.
Waking up at 5:30am and not getting home till 8 or 9 at night is my reasoning
for not exercising. But this upcoming
week my schedule is a little less chaotic and I am determined to fit in some
morning work outs even if it’s just 3 or 4 a week. Any exercise is better than
none!
Flash Back
I was hungry
after work the other day and was thinking of something fast and easy for
dinner. For some reason Subway kept
coming to my mind but I just can’t bring myself to eat it regularly. Not that Subway is the worst option by any
means, but when I lived in AZ I would get subway at least once a week sometimes
twice. I would get a foot long BMT with all the veggies and cheese and avocado.
I would also get two bags of chips (one bag for each half of sandwich) and a
large soda. I would get home and get my plate and my napkins and find a comfortable
spot on the couch. I would be sure to have a good show on T.V. before I began eating
and off I would go. I was so full and
stuffed afterwards and not one bit happy. The thought of my “eating subway ritual” makes
me so ashamed and disgusted. So ashamed
and disgusted that I get sick thinking of eating that sandwich. And I love subway but it just reminds me of
how I got to be over 300lbs and I am so scared to go back there.
This mornings weigh in has me at 28lbs lost since May 2012. I know if I put in the
hard work like I did all summer I will be able to drop more weight, but this
cold weather makes it so dang hard! I was afraid this was going to happen too.
With football season and all the fatty cheesy foods that go with that. Then the
holidays and all the baked goods and casseroles that go with holidays. The cold
weather and getting dark earlier at night. Ughh I am defiantly someone who is
better at losing weight in the summer.
But that is
too bad. I have a goal of being 200lbs or less by July 2013 and I am going to
reach that goal. I am not going to fail. I am going to do the necessary work
to blow all my friends and family away. Shit I am going to blow myself away!
Today is my
first day back in full force and I am not screwing around! Although my insane
schedule is not allowing me much blog time I assure you I am still reading all
the blogs I follow and all your hard work and progress is motivating me every
day. I will be sure to write again soon and thank you all for reading!
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