Have you missed me??

If anyone is still out there following me I apologize for my absence, but as we all know life happens. I have started my second job at a mental health center and I have been putting in about 50-60hrs a week between both jobs. I love the new job and I am learning a ton, but free time is scarce these days and I am sorry I have not been keeping up on posts.

Another reason for not posting very often is because there is not too much to report as far as my weight loss. The past few weeks I have only exercised a handful of times. I ended up with another cold one week after my first one.

 I have been making decent choices as far as what I am eating but I most defiantly have not been as on track as I could/should be. Even though my food consumption is not 100% the best it could be, I have still lost a few pounds. As of my last weigh in I am down to 261lbs. Making my total since May 29lbs. Making my total since I moved home from AZ 72lbs.  J

I have not been working on any of the goals from my goals page and my C25K running has been nonexistent. The weather is cold and gloomy here and work out videos have been my go to lately due to lack of time. My gym has gotten some new machines and nice flat screen tv’s though so I am pretty happy about that.

We survived hurricane Sandy last night and my part of New England did not get hit as bad as other places. The wind was scary and I did not like it one bit, but I know it could have been much worse and I am thankful we did not sustain any damages.

Another form of Mother Nature has blown through my life today and I am going to take it easy, but I plan on getting back on track a.s.a.p. If I can get my shit together right now I can still drop a few pounds before thanksgiving. And I am still hoping I have lost enough for my family to notice and let me know they notice that I have lost weight.  

I am not sure if I still have anyone reading my blog but if I do thank you for hanging on. I will try to write more often. If I can get my act together I will have more to write about, which in turn should force me to find more time to write.

Bye bye now.

Update & Flash Back

Update

Although I have not been the worst eater these past few weeks I have not been the best. I also have not exercised in the past 9 days.  Well today I am getting back on track for real. I have been eating mostly the same things I always do but with a few not so great meals here and there.  So this morning after packing my lunch for the day I wrote it all down and added up the weight watchers points, as well as added all the food to MFP app. My gym bag is packed for the first time in two weeks and I plan on hitting up the crazy machine after work today.

I have been training at my new job as well as still working full time at my current job. Waking up at 5:30am and not getting home till 8 or 9 at night is my reasoning for not exercising.  But this upcoming week my schedule is a little less chaotic and I am determined to fit in some morning work outs even if it’s just 3 or 4 a week. Any exercise is better than none!

Flash Back

I was hungry after work the other day and was thinking of something fast and easy for dinner.  For some reason Subway kept coming to my mind but I just can’t bring myself to eat it regularly.  Not that Subway is the worst option by any means, but when I lived in AZ I would get subway at least once a week sometimes twice. I would get a foot long BMT with all the veggies and cheese and avocado. I would also get two bags of chips (one bag for each half of sandwich) and a large soda. I would get home and get my plate and my napkins and find a comfortable spot on the couch. I would be sure to have a good show on T.V. before I began eating and off I would go.  I was so full and stuffed afterwards and not one bit happy.  The thought of my “eating subway ritual” makes me so ashamed and disgusted.  So ashamed and disgusted that I get sick thinking of eating that sandwich.  And I love subway but it just reminds me of how I got to be over 300lbs and I am so scared to go back there.

This mornings weigh in has me at 28lbs lost since May 2012. I know if I put in the hard work like I did all summer I will be able to drop more weight, but this cold weather makes it so dang hard! I was afraid this was going to happen too. With football season and all the fatty cheesy foods that go with that. Then the holidays and all the baked goods and casseroles that go with holidays. The cold weather and getting dark earlier at night. Ughh I am defiantly someone who is better at losing weight in the summer.

But that is too bad. I have a goal of being 200lbs or less by July 2013 and I am going to reach that goal. I am not going to fail. I am going to do the necessary work to blow all my friends and family away. Shit I am going to blow myself away!

 

Today is my first day back in full force and I am not screwing around! Although my insane schedule is not allowing me much blog time I assure you I am still reading all the blogs I follow and all your hard work and progress is motivating me every day. I will be sure to write again soon and thank you all for reading!

Three jobs!?!?

I am just so busy. I have been training for my new job as well as working my normal fulltime job AND interviewing for another job working with the state. On top of all that I have contracted a cold that is in full force today. Luckily my schedule today and tomorrow is simple, Friday on the other hand the madness continues.

I was able to wake up early Monday and get a work out in before work. Yesterday I had my gym bag to go workout after my full day of training but by the time my day ended my throat was on fire. This morning and tomorrow morning I was supposed to hit the gym before work but this cold is getting in the way for sure.

I am going to allow myself to relax with this cold and be sure to stay on track with my eating since I cannot work out. I weighed myself this morning and I am still at the same weight I have been for weeks now, but at least it is not going up. I would love to see the scale go down but I feel good and I am not gaining so that is important. I am also not working hard enough to make the scale go down so I cant be disappointed.

Sunday I am finally supposed to go on that hike I have been talking about since July? But now it looks like Sunday might rain. Ugh so annoying!

Anyway that is my short update. I am still able to keep up reading all the blogs I follow but when it comes to writing I do not have much to report.

Sorry for being so boring! Thanks for reading.  

My work space today.

Short update

I am doing well. Still maintaining the same weight on the scale but it has not got me down. I am still working out often and staying on track with WW points. I recently switched from doing both WW and MFP to just MFP, but it seems ever since I made that change I was not staying on track as much and I was eating unhealthier foods. I have decided to go back to doing both WW and MFP like I was when I started this whole thing. This week has been insane for me working full time and recently picking up a per diem job that I have began training. I am working 12hr days and my new job is about a 20-25 minute commute from my house.

I just wanted to check in and let folks know I am still doing well,  just very busy. I will be sure to write again soon, If I can ever find the time! LoL.

View from one of my new office buildings!!

My commute is North and boy is fall making it's apperance!
 

Thanks for reading and have a good day.

Doing good

Ah doing great.

Yesterday I did my walk/jog outside in some beautiful neighborhoods and dreamed about my future. I completed 60 minutes and burned 397 calories (my goal was to burn 400 calories) so I was happy.

I have recently picked up a second job and I just got the okay to start training next Friday. I am very excited because it is a per diem situation and I will be able to make my own schedule each month. I never thought I would take a per diem job but this one is with a great company and it is an excellent way to get my foot in the door. The only down fall is it is a 25 minute drive from my house. Most people are probably like “please 25 minutes that is nothing”   but my current dirve to work is 7 minutes and that is with red lights LoL. I also have a bit of an anxiety when it comes to driving far distances and/or on high ways.    :-/

It will be good though because this new job is in my field (my current job is far far from it) and once I am all trained and I can make my own schedule I will have all this extra income, which I desperately need.

I am nervous about how jam packed next week is going to be because it will be very difficult to make time for exercise but once I am done this post I am going to try and make a schedule and see where I can fit it in.

This week has been great as far as staying on track. My calories are under by 100-200 each night and I have been trying to burn about 400 during exercise. I peeked at the scale this morning and I am down 1lb from my last official weigh in. I NEED to stay on track this weekend because come weigh-in day (new weigh in day is going to be Sundays) I have to show some progress. I refuse to keep back pedaling. I have not lost anything in what I feel like is a month now.

Yesterdays work out was good and I went to bed with 200 calories left!

I did my cardio mix completing 15 minutes on each cardio machine ultimately burring 418 calories. My only issue is that I was nauseous, almost motion sick, on all the machines. It is so frustrating but I was able to get through and it was not so bad.  I tired focousing on something in the distance that was still (not easy at the gym when everyone is moving around) but the only thing perfect for that was the wall clock and I did not want to watch the time! LoL. I made it through and took it easy and felt good afterwards.

Today it is cool and partly cloudy so I am going to exercise outside today. (I am most likely going to do my C25K work out.) Diner tonight is not going to be the healthiest option (homemade mac and cheese with ham in it) so I want to make sure I do a full hour of exercise and burn around 400 calories again.

I am also meeting my friend this week and she is going to let me use her 5lb weights and return the 3lbs I have been using. So either this weekend or next week my strength training is going to increase. I am excited about that because I defiantly notice my arms having flabby loose skin. My arms have always been big and I am well aware someone my size is going to have A LOT of saggy loose skin, but that doesn’t mean I have to like it. I have never been self-conscious about my arms and they have gotten smaller and I thought I had prepared myself for loose skin but now that it is actually here I don’t like it.

It’s all good though I have already started saving for skin surgery. That will be my ultimate present to myself once I am at my goal weight    ;-)   I hope everyone is having a good day!

Not sure if you can notice an arm difference or not
October 2011 vs. August 2012

Thankful

Today I was reminded by a fellow bloggers post why I started this new way of life. I was reminded that I am not alone, these up’s and down’s and uncomfortable feelings are all a part of the processes.  I will have bad days, bad weeks, but I cannot forget how far I have come, how far I still have to go, and how hard I need to keep working. In the end it will all be worth it. It is already worth it.

I was in a funk and not feeling right or motivated this past week, but I think I have my mojo back. I was able to stay on track with my eating yesterday, and I am pumped up and ready for the gym this afternoon.  I have nothing planned this whole week or weekend that would sacrifice my calories and I feel if I can just stay on track for this one full week I will be so happy. I just need to take it small steps at a time. Short goals lead to long term bigger goals. My short term goal is to stay on track this whole week. Starting yesterday ending Sunday. 

I am toying with the idea of doing my cardio mix at the gym this afternoon. I think that would be the best option because it will keep things interesting and make time go by faster.

This is a short post but I thought it was important to be thankful for everyone else out there who writes about their weight loss. It truly does help me and I am glad I stumbled across this community.

Till next time…..